To be honest... I truly felt like throughout Cathy's illness we were preparing ourselves for the inevitable. That we were able to grieve 'ahead of time' knowing what was ahead for her & us. But I was so wrong, at least for me. I have my good days & bad days. And lately, with her Birthday coming up on the 17th I seem to be struggling. The reality of it all is finally hitting me... all of the emotions of the past few years coming to a halt with a sad ending. I became so much closer to her while helping care for her, that it made it even harder to let go in the end.
It is hard to let go... hard to move on without the guilt of moving on without her.
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Thinking of you!
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